In 2011, I want to...

Meet new people, meet some again, be with my friends
Have self-confidence, be less pessimistic (even though I've been telling this for years)
Still be motived for studies, even though I don't like some courses
Pass my exams at Nanterre University
Go on an exchange student program in South Korea, Seoul
Go to China, South Korea and Japan
Go to see Guckkasten, Sakanaction, KREVA, ACIDMAN...
Go to Countdown Japan fes' 2011-2012
Buy lots of cds
etc.

And I'll probably be happy when Tukutz comes back from military service. I really like Epik High and it's sad 2010 was such a harsh year for them.
2010 wasn't really nice to me either. Hopefully 2011 will be a year of many successes.

Exchange

I'll take the TOEFL exam in two weeks. I'd like to get a mark as high as possible but it's not like I speak English fluently.
But the fact is that I may be lucky enough to get into an Korean or an Japanese university as an exchange student next year. And for it to happen, I need to get a very good score!!
Please tell me if I make any mistakes.
The more I think about it the more I want to go overseas. Being far from one's family, not speaking the local language but English. I know about it.
I really want to try living one year abroad on my own and see how really this foreign country is.
I really like Paris and I like studying in Nanterre but I just want to go to Asia.
Would I like it?

Someday

University is starting soon. I'm not anxious nor happy about it. I'm thoughtful.

Is it only the beginning of hardships, of adulthood? Do I have to make the right choices now? Do I have to choose for my future?
I'm kinda of sad to be all alone again, my friends left to follow their own path.

I don't know how much I changed these last years, this past decade.
I kinda still like similar things but did I grow up?

One life

Things may not go the way I want them to. But it's good that life is surprising.
It has its sad moments and its goodbyes.
We also discover new things and meet new people. We keep precious memories.

My life hasn't begun nor ended. I'm just living in the present moment.

I may not know how to spend my time in a useful way. I may not be the best friend or family. I may not put enough effort to do things.

I'm curious about life. Life is too precious, isn't it?

Maybe

Finally things have been decided. One more year in Paris for me. Next year I'm going to study near Paris business district, la Défense, in Paris Nanterre University.
Management Sciences or Business Management. I don't know even know what I chose to study this. Maybe because everything else just looks even worse to me. I don't want to specialize (for my Master, which is in two years) in Finance but rather in Marketing or Communication. What would be the best thing? Doing some exchange program in some Asian university. Yeah. I have to convince my parents and study hard, very hard.

But things don't really look clearer.

Just watching

My mind is full of different thoughts.
About travels and university.
About next summer and next year.
About friends and music.
About money and life.

My two years at the IUT will end in two weeks. I met two of my most precious friends here. I don't know if studying management was the best choice to take though.
I'm sure we'll still meet. I'll continue studing business and management next year.
Where? I don't know yet.

I'm interested in going to Asia more than ever for studies and travels.
I still don't know whether I'll go to South Korea or not.
I miss Japan so much.

Bonne fête maman.

20

I'm 20 years old since 6th April. It's kinda special, isn't it? I feel a bit more adult. I also feel much more motivated than ever before.
I'll probably come back to Japan in summer '11 and I may go to South Korea for the first time. Actually I hope I can study overseas (somewhere in Asia) for my 4th year of college (2011-2012). If it doesn't happen then I'll leave after ending my studies in Paris. I really want this.

I'm glad I can openly talk about things I want, things I like, to people who have different points of view. My parents try to understand me and I'm really thankful.

I'm glad about how things are now. Life is difficult but interesting.

Together

I'm afraid to lose you.

It's a great feeling, spending time with friends, hanging around, going to places you have never been before, sitting somewhere, talking about life.

You are the most precious things in the world.

No Music No Life

I want to write letters.
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2010 isn't going to be as boring as I thought. I will probably not do exciting things. Though there are things I need to achieve.
1. Get into another university for my 3rd year (still in Paris!!)
2. Find a job (this summer) so that I can come back to Japan asap (Christmas holidays?)
Other goals are : knowing English better, keeping in touch with friends, etc.

Time is passing by and I wish I knew what to do.